I'm lame at updating this journal.

Possibly because I said I'd keep it drama free... but I've seen nothing but drama, seriously.
Lots has happened. I don't really want to go into it right now. The tl;dr version: I've been rotting away here. And it took an interesting kick in the butt to make me realize it. But I urgently need to spread my wings and fly.

Where to? Dunno. I'm torn in a few different directions. It's a battle of head vs. heart. Head says be logical and go where it makes sense. Heart says go where I'll be happy. Head says strive to be the smart, successful young adult that everyone else seems so concerned that I be. Heart says follow your dreams. Heart is hurting right now for many reasons out of my control and just wants to be happy. But head says pay attention, as it can't stay in the clouds.
I need to have a serious talk with my bodyparts, here. But I'm overdue for any kind of mildly rewarding venture. Seriously.



Seriously.



Been riding out an art wave spawned by these turbulent times... I've just been lazy with it. Or sentimental. Most of it was therapy art anyway. Ionno. check my sketchblog if you want. Not much there, but there will be. Been on a conceptual kick and that seems to not turn up here as much.
Joined a draw-a-thon to keep myself hammering out art with a deadline. Since I guess that's what I want to do at some point, career-wise.
I guess.

If you haven't noticed, I've become pretty darn indifferent about things.
In fact, I don't feel like finishing this entry. but I will.

The End.

~ Teh Mutt

Hey, I'm alive, lol.

Many factors for my absence; a small one being school but the biggest was lack of artstuffs. And when my subscription died way back whenever, I just didn't feel much like updating. XD So I'm back and determined to produce more artsy yumminess.

Oh... big news. I'm now officially a SCAD graduate.
Now my job search can continue on a more professional level, I guess. Not that anything was stopping me before except the lack of better content for my portfolio and demo reel. Oh wait... that's still a problem. =\
I'm working on it, I swear.

In the meantime, though, my current employment situation has been less than desirable and my locality is not making it any easier, so I'm looking into freelancing and commissions. Don't laugh... I'm at least serious about freelancing, lol. Commissions..... dunno. I wish I was a more famous artist here on DA for that. It's easy to get overlooked for all the resident superstars. Let me hammer out the details and get settled in (from moving) before I declare anything. I could really use the money, tho... the urgency of leaving here for bigger things can't be expressed enough in this short and drama-free journal blab. ._.

As far as current artstuffs (check my list), I'm really just trying to jazz up my portfolio with more animation and such. Can't call yourself an animator and have little or crappy animation. >=\
Although, a chain of recent events suddenly made me want to resurrect and redo story of mine that's been years in the making. Since my character Tavé's creation, in fact. Her origin story, which is probably full of metaphors seeing how she's such a personal character, lol. But look for a sudden influx of character development and art from that.

Oh, and I started a sketch blog, but there's nothing in it yet. XD [link] Things will come, as soon as I stop being lazy.

Um.
That's all for now. Gonna finish something to upload... at least until it's time to get up and finish packing/cleaning.

~ Teh Mutt

Mmmm.... not sure what to say; since I suddenly have to censor myself here. >=\ That also explains my lack of journal updates.

Speaking of. Here's one.

I've moved to Augusta, GA... with my parents. Just until I get financially back up to speed. Taking a break from SCAD for awhile, unfortunately. Long story that involves me nearly going to war with a professor.
Employed... with the company you love to hear me complain about; but this time in the Visual department *wavy ooo hands* Call it a promotion..? Wish my paycheck would say the same.
Haven't been arting up very much... I've just had other interests at the moment. Mainly Spore, because it's FREAKING AWESOME. I might flood my scraps with Spore-versions of my various critters.
Other than that, not much art at all. Poking my website, maybe. If I get up the motivation, I might sit down and make myself do the many things on my To-Draw list. But once I start seriously working, I doubt that will come easily.

Eh.

That's all for now... tho I might step up the updates while my subscription still lasts.

~ Teh Mutt

Currently feeling like a giant waste of life. Not a good feeling at all.

So much for my increase of updates. I might have drawn something close to every week, but don't ask me where it is now. >_<
Not much has happened, anyway.

Still at SCAD... last quarter, as unexpected as it was. Finally broke the camel's back with my parents and repeatedly disappointing them and eating their funds (slightly by their own fault due to not letting me getting a loan to help out =\ ). But now I'm doing school and looking for a job to pay rent.
I wish I'd known the economy sucks before I went and screwed up. -.-;
I have applications floating around darn near everywhere with no luck; even when I call them repeatedly showing genuine interest.

It sucks because... while mommy and daddy wouldn't ever let me starve and send me rent sometimes... I'd like not to be such a helpless mooch. That and I'm looking to adopt a kitten while I still have some free time (as in... not a 9 to 5 job) and honestly can't afford all the new kitten costs; even at discounted and low-income vets. Because... I don't have any income right now. T_T

That being said... I'm actually going to... *gulp* start commissions. *waits for floods of people.... isn't surprised at all at hearing crickets* Lol, meh.
I've had two this summer, surprisingly... because I never thought anyone would pay for my work. Why, with all the superstars living here on DA? I'm completely honored to be chosen by those who did so.

In other news, I started playing the evil that is World of Warcraft recently; thus contributing to my feeling like a waste of life. Luckily tho, it doesn't own my soul because I have more important things to do. Like finding a job. Highly entertaining... and certainly worth all the hype. But it's not life. Silly addicts. =\

As far as personal artstuffs... I... *sigh* just don't feel that motivated. It's the saddest thing ever. Something might inspire me, but I have bigger things on my mind and never get to it. You should see my art idea list. It's very full, but nothing I'd tackle right now (excluding commission work, of course.)
I'm such a sell out.
And a bum.
And a blob of wasted life and faded ambitions.

Yeah... I'm not even gonna try to cover that bit of angst.

~ Teh Mutt

Had to get the angsty babbling off my page... kept getting a lot of questions. ;
For the record... I was just spooked, and things were remedied shortly. No word on any stolen stuff tho. -.-;

Anyhoo. Quick update before packing up to move to my new place. My househunt was successful and I hope to be happy [or at least stable] in a more permanent setting. And bugging ~elipse. <__<;;
Gonna miss being close to everyone proximity-wise tho... ;_; come see me and I'll give you cookies? Don't quote me on that.

In other news, just went to the SCAD career fair. I didn't get there until late from being ridiculously ill that morning (curse you mysterious foodstuffs!! ), but I got there in time to see Radical Axis... I guess that's the only one I was fervently aiming for... others I saw on a whim. <_<; Talked to Activision, Critical Mass, and some small company called Gallopade...? it looked kinda kitschy... but locations are flexible and I have a feeling their animators aren't very... eh... experienced.
Oh, and Pixar was there.
Yeeeeah, I know.
Don't gimme that.
I got there way too late to even look at them because of the crowd... and I'm just not as comfortable with my 3D skills. u_u
I handed out mah business cards and stuff... then scrambled to update my website... which I'm STILL working on. I should have been done days ago... not sure why I'm taking so long. Because I like playing with code like a dork.

Uhmmmmm.... what else.
I uploaded?
Missed my "quota" last week, so I doubled down. Plus my latest two kinda needed to go in succession. Behold the newest Zoo Crew members!! They've been in existence for awhile... just not uploaded, etc. There are still the "side characters" (the Cousins) to tackle, but they [admittedly] might not get the same amount of bells and whistles... there are just too many. >__<
I still gotta figure out what I can do with these guys... plot-wise and stuff.

I'm... slowly... dozing off. XD so I think I'll end this now. Very short hiatus as I move across town. But no longer than a usual M.I.A. (Galang, galang, galang.)
HA! bad joke. I sleepy now. *scuttles under a pile of pillows*

~ Teh Mutt